too much too fast

October in the Valley

There is just a lot to do.  And honestly a lot more to think about.  Processing weighs heavy this time a round.  There is a lot of sadness in this move.  And  I'm not good with moving anyway.  I like settling in a lot better.  The only traveling I am comfortable with, is in my mind.

It is chilly this morning.  I was lazy about the fire.  I turned the heat on while making coffee.  I pinned the bottom of the Grow cloth up out of the way because it blocks the heating vent.  As I did, I noticed one beautiful empty corner...

Still an opportunity for Growing I muttered to myself.

on the corner of a cloth called Grow.

And so I spend too much time just looking...

used but not useless

hand sawing is a comfort

Dear

something about carrying and keeping

earth star cabin wishing

One of the first things I did when I moved here is to put up a clothesline.  I took it down.  I am still sawing wood with a hand saw.  Just because it calms me.  The deer are coming closer.  It's like they are saying good bye.  I hope they have an easier winter. The old stump is still home to chipmunks and makes a nice snack table.  I keep sewing and avoiding other things I need to do.

seems almost a metaphor for what keeps us going

 

And so...

My presence may be thinner.

The season has turned.

This picture of Soul-o just seemed a metaphor for life in some sad yet joyful way.

Thank you all for your kind support and patience during this crazy time.

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56 comments

  1. Susan Lamb

    It’s never easy but praying you’ll soon be ok and further inspired to continue your beautiful works of art but allowing yourself to rest when needed.bless you and your cat .

  2. Lisa

    Good luck for a smooth move. New horizon, room to grow, although it is painful.

    I’ll look forward to seeing your new home in time through your blog.

  3. Helen salo

    I posted but can’t find it. Just wanted to say moving whether it is planned or not is not easy. Just hang in There and one day it will all come together again, like magic. And I know you know magic😉🥰 just try to focus o. All the great things you want to do in a new place. And how it will help with making you a new. Love❤️

  4. Helen salo

    Moving: whether forced or volunteer is always an adjustment. I know you’ll try to focus on all the great things to come (as would I) and then poof! One day it all comes together magically and life is good! And you know magic 😉🥰

  5. Deb VZ

    Wishing you clarity of thought and purpose as you pack and get ready for this move. It’s the thinking that always slows me in these situations, rarely the doing. I hope its a peaceful transition for you and Soul-O.

  6. Lynn Watson

    Dear Jude, you’ve survived a very bad time – and when all is packed and you’ve moved to a new home with
    Soul-O, you will settle, and stitch on, with support of your many, many friends. And, as someone wrote:
    “Don’t spend life in the past lane”. Wishing you all good things for your new life and may it be the best yet. Thinking of you.

  7. Joelle Baum

    I’ll be stitching beside you on this journey. I don’t like change or moving! Stitching holds me on the path and keeps me grounded, so I’ll hold you in the stitches!

  8. sharon

    i’m also moving. one step at a time. one day at a time. a healing process. feeling the pain helps to release it. creating space for the now ‘n what will be. the forest is your teacher. it’s all good, jude. breathe. laugh. let go… love u reeeeeally BIG.

  9. Ingrid Johnson

    My very best wishes on your next move and sincerely hope it will be in a lovely green, wild environment as the ones you have left and are leaving now. From my now concrete jungle (once a beautiful, leafy suburb filled with local wildlife), my thoughts are with you as you tread and sew new paths. I have loved your homes and am excited to see Soul-o, your Spirit Cloths and you in your new abode. Take Care Jude, be well, be happy!
    Hugs.

  10. Aida

    No need to reply, Jude, but I wanted to wish you a smooth transition from one home to another. I can’t wait to hear about your new location and how you will make it your own.

  11. Jen

    One step, one nibble at a time.
    Then, “Paws”…
    It’s ok.
    Put the burdens down for a moment…or two.
    It’s such a melancholy season.
    Sending HUGS
    💙💙💙💙💙

  12. Kristin F.

    Moves unplanned sometimes bring unanticipated, wonderful blessings. Just 6 months ago I experienced a quick unplanned move that resulted in a new home so much better and what I really needed.
    I hold you in love and light as you, too, make a surprise, unplanned change of location. May the gathering of things go easily and the relocation find new opportunities for exploring your creative energies.

  13. Joy

    Tears are in my eyes. I really feel for you, for all you’ve gone through. My mom would say, “Keep your chin up!” Wishing you the best and wonderful, joyful moments on your new (continuing) path.

  14. Catherine

    Hanging in there at the times our life feels too much is a major life skill. You are hanging in there and thats the path to life feeling easier. And sometimes we just have to have blind faith that is true.

  15. Cj

    So many in your court as you brave this new course. When the last box is packed, you’ll be able to hopefully breath easier. You might carve something in the outdoor tabletop. I learned putting dishes of water on the ground when it grew hot outdoors from you. 💞

  16. Sharon McDonnell

    Moving. Ugh. After I read your post I came upon this poem and hope it gives a little lift. My all the words of encouragement here in your comments also lift you from a sense of responsibility for us. We are fine and standing with you through change.

    Storage
    by Mary Oliver
    When I moved from
    one house to another,
    there were many things
    I had no room for.
    What does one do?
    I rented a storage space
    and filled it.
    Years passed.
    Occasionally,
    I went there
    and looked in,
    but nothing happened,
    not a single twinge
    of the heart.
    As I grew older
    the things I cared about
    grew fewer but were
    more important,
    so one day I undid the lock
    and called the trash man.
    He took everything.
    I felt like the little donkey
    when his burden is finally
    lifted.
    Things! Burn them, burn them!
    Make a beautiful fire!
    More room in your heart
    for Love, for the trees.
    For the birds who own
    nothing;
    the reason they
    can fly.

  17. Judith

    Moving can be difficult on so many levels. I guess that’s why I haven’t moved almost 40 years. Wishing you all the peace and strength you need to get through it. We will be waiting whenever and wherever.

  18. Heather Smith

    Of all of the things you have to be concerned with, we here should not be one of them. We will be here when you’re settled. Moving all of the things has its challenges but it’s tangible and has a clear end when it’s done. Moving our feelings, now that’s heavier, especially when it involves growing in a direction we didn’t ask for. Sweet Soul-o, so happy he’s with you and well.

  19. Helen Lee

    So wish we ragmates could come and help…but, then it would most likely be way too chaotic 🥰
    Wishing you a smooth transition Jude, and sending loads of love and a big bear hug.
    These photos are beautiful and calming 😍

  20. Jana

    May the wrenching feelings be softened by flow feelings. The next stitch. The comfort of your own cloths around you, over you, under you. Soul-O is carrying no burdens; good role model! 🙂

    “I will not rehearse uncertainties to come. My mind is cradled in the peace of [God/Source/the Divine/etc.].” -Hugh Prather

  21. Moki

    The clothespins 🌈. It takes such bravery to keep pinning and unpinning them.

    ((Brave Clothwhisperer, a and her Familiar )) ✌️

  22. Amy

    I just went through this as well. I think I’m out the other side now. I found there is moving of stuff, moving from place, and moving from “we” to “I.” A lot of different waves to ride. I’m heartened that you allowed yourself to be lazy about the fire. And I’m glad you have Soul-o for comfort.

  23. Marti

    There is moving because we want to and there is moving because we have to: I have experienced both and found that moving because we had to was so much harder. So I grieved for a few days, then set about doing what needed doing, as you are doing Jude. Acknowledging your sadness at the circumstances is necessary, and an honest and important step into moving forward and just going. In time we move to doing what is necessary and slowly the reality of setting up elsewhere and settling in, begins to wrap around us in a nudge toward our next life phase…

  24. Suzy Hard

    Yes, leaving a home is heavy.Then there is excitement creating a new nest. May your days be lighter as you move forward. ❤️❤️❤️

  25. I don’t envy you – our last move was over 21 years ago, and we hope it’s the last on this earth, but we don’t know what’s ahead. I hope you can weather the change and soon find yourself settling in wherever you end up next. Will wait to hear more…

  26. Nancy D

    Oh, Jude. One small step at a time, soaking in the bits of beauty when possible…
    That “empty” corner looks like a New Moon to me! A message.

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