It

What is "it"?

there was flow and a deep sense of satisfaction...

 

I've been painting.  Based on that sketch... I actually made the sketch in the hospital,  the day I was released, while waiting for my son to come pick me up.  The pencil came in a little bag of hospital stuff they give you.  The paper was in my pocket when I finally got to put my regular clothes on.

I've been struggling with my paperwork, not feeling at ease.  Today that changed, as I said to myself, "I found it", referring to recent mumblings that were more like I lost it.  It. What is it?

Some kind of Ease?

I always wanted to be an illustrator.  I see that reflected in my little story cloths. I understand how that style emerged. But it's been so long, working on paper was not flowing as I remember it.  I work with watercolor and pencil.  My dad used to use watercolor. I suddenly remember him saying to me that watercolor  is about acceptance. Layers of acceptance.  Be the water he said.

I relaxed. Changed the paper I was working on.  I used to work on smooth paper... much better.  Found my old favorite pencils. Comfort returned. A happy flow. " I found it", I said.

As I move forward, I think have a way to work in both mediums and use them for different dreams.

I feel ok.   I am healing.  I found the joy that left me when I was ill.

I feel very grateful.

I keep thinking of my childhood and "Tag, you're it" ...

Be a Lifeboat.
aka Transport.

A humming bird just came to the window but there was not enough time...

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32 comments

  1. Bogi

    So beautiful to read your stories, and be part of your creative process and magical works. Art is so healing! Thank you for sharing about life as it is with its ups and downs and everything that holds and your way of seeing it and your personal experiences. You are so inspiring!!!! ❤️🌝

  2. Caro

    Yeahhh to feeling better and to find it..again.
    That moon💛
    Looks like the strong right side is taking charge over the, what should i call it? “Not so happy left side”?

  3. Jana

    Ebb and flow … happy for you for the return of joy. I lost that connection for about 2 months … now a new homeopathic remedy has kicked in/come online as it were, and I’ve found the thread to joy once again. Joy is a blessing.

  4. barbara mcdaniel

    Thanks Jude, as always , when you are able, you share and your sharing seems to always resonate on so many levels.
    Welcome home to finding it.
    Waiting here for the hummingbirds. Hmmmmm, they are usually here in the back yard by now.
    I’ll sit longer and quieter, maybe they will appear.

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