It

What is "it"?

there was flow and a deep sense of satisfaction...

 

I've been painting.  Based on that sketch... I actually made the sketch in the hospital,  the day I was released, while waiting for my son to come pick me up.  The pencil came in a little bag of hospital stuff they give you.  The paper was in my pocket when I finally got to put my regular clothes on.

I've been struggling with my paperwork, not feeling at ease.  Today that changed, as I said to myself, "I found it", referring to recent mumblings that were more like I lost it.  It. What is it?

Some kind of Ease?

I always wanted to be an illustrator.  I see that reflected in my little story cloths. I understand how that style emerged. But it's been so long, working on paper was not flowing as I remember it.  I work with watercolor and pencil.  My dad used to use watercolor. I suddenly remember him saying to me that watercolor  is about acceptance. Layers of acceptance.  Be the water he said.

I relaxed. Changed the paper I was working on.  I used to work on smooth paper... much better.  Found my old favorite pencils. Comfort returned. A happy flow. " I found it", I said.

As I move forward, I think have a way to work in both mediums and use them for different dreams.

I feel ok.   I am healing.  I found the joy that left me when I was ill.

I feel very grateful.

I keep thinking of my childhood and "Tag, you're it" ...

Be a Lifeboat. aka Transport.

A humming bird just came to the window but there was not enough time...

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  2. Helen salo

    Man am I out of touch. Didn’t know you were in hospital???
    I guess 1st my computer may have misfuntioned. ,2. I have been in an out of hospital for my back so I’m all behind on everything. They reconstructed my back from upper straight to my butt but now the screws are falling out so have to go back in again in July when I’m stronger to fix
    Crazy, crazy dhit I tell ya I’m getting up there and I don’t want the rest of my life to be this mess.I really can’t do much of anything😩

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    • jude

      Hey Helen, sorry to hear of your health struggles. Here we are, trying to keep going… I tried to email you and left you a message on Instagram, my email cannot be delivered for some reason. Anyway, hang in there!

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  3. Lou

    We have so many selves don’t we, all part of the whole. I find it hard to be at ease with my ill self, too much uncertainty maybe. I always love your paper works when they appear, cloth ones like this moon are the other side to the same thought maybe. Theres always magic and wonder, something alive and otherworldy that I love in your beautiful images Jude. I hope It stays for a while and you find wellness, peace of mind and healing along with your creative river flowing. Seeds of wonder, maybe thats what your images are, yoyr words and I ponder that.

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  9. Faith

    I’m glad for you that you found it. This post just feels good to me. It also hints at something I didn’t know I needed, still don’t know what it is, but tells me I will also find it.
    There is so much expressed in your picture. The old moon looks so tired. But wheee! your basket-boat-creature self looks so happy, (loved and caring) filled with love, adrift (going with the flow) in the not very calm water.
    Looking at it more, the basket-creature could also be a nest. With heard shaped eggs! Makes me want to ponder what might hatch from heart shaped eggs.

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  11. Beth O

    What a lovely post! Thanks so much for sharing your life & creative journey with us, Jude. Glad you are feeling better and reconnecting with things that you love!

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  13. Bogi

    So beautiful to read your stories, and be part of your creative process and magical works. Art is so healing! Thank you for sharing about life as it is with its ups and downs and everything that holds and your way of seeing it and your personal experiences. You are so inspiring!!!! ❤️🌝

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  17. Caro

    Yeahhh to feeling better and to find it..again.
    That moon💛
    Looks like the strong right side is taking charge over the, what should i call it? “Not so happy left side”?

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  19. Jana

    Ebb and flow … happy for you for the return of joy. I lost that connection for about 2 months … now a new homeopathic remedy has kicked in/come online as it were, and I’ve found the thread to joy once again. Joy is a blessing.

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  22. barbara mcdaniel

    Thanks Jude, as always , when you are able, you share and your sharing seems to always resonate on so many levels.
    Welcome home to finding it.
    Waiting here for the hummingbirds. Hmmmmm, they are usually here in the back yard by now.
    I’ll sit longer and quieter, maybe they will appear.

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