Seeds

Even though it is winter...

Or maybe because it is winter.

Many seeds.  On the cloth I call  Grow.  Before bed mostly.  Like counting sheep.  I was counting but then I lost myself in too many to count.  I can see them or just close my eyes and feel them.

growing through winter

the sounds of the earth are music #1

Way back,  when there were thoughts of being an illustrator, there was a series called The Sounds of the Earth are Music.  And these winter days have opened time to dig through boxes of loose drawings and remember.  It is like paging through an ancient seed catalog.  I am tracing the threads from then to now is some loose way, but still the path seems clearer than ever. The other more obvious sense is how joy was so much part of my work.  Even the joy of expressing all the other feelings. Sadness, anger, fear.  Getting them out and giving them formthought making

After listening,  thinking that I give thoughts form, maybe, firstly, to just to share with myself. Beyond just closing my eyes and feeling.  Or because I enjoy it.  Yes, I make because I enjoy it.  Remembering that I did it even when no one was looking. It is not about being an artist or being recognized as such.  The drive is fueled by joy.

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39 comments

  1. Really resonating with your words today… thinking about all the old paintings and how some that I thought were odd balls and weird or not “good” ended up being seeds for much later work. Thinking about joy. If I had to put a word or two on my work, I think it would be mystery, that it’s all about sharing the mystery somehow. But within that there is this profound astonishment in the natural world and that is a form of joy. Hmmm, going to muse on this while slowly and carefully bringing in lots and lots of wood after I finish my dandelion coffee. Thanks for the thought-seeds 🙂

  2. Jan in Nagasaki

    That old sunday school song. Because stitching is music.,.
    I’ve got the joy of quilting joy of quilting down in my heart.
    Where?
    Down in my heart.
    Where?
    Down in my heart. I’ve got the joy of quilting quilting joy of quilting down in my heart. Down in my heart to stay.

  3. sharon

    loving this “ancient seed catalog” you’ve unearthed. buried treasure. how re-discovering for a second, third or even ninth time can bring just as much delight as the original making. living joy…

  4. Imagine me, sitting here, knitting away in rings…nodding my head. “Yes, yes exactly.” 🙂 Thought of the seeds as twinkle lights this morning. Planning on some sewing today too.

  5. Cheryl Greenstreet

    Joy – yes! and light. Those two words have been on my mind and in my heart lately. I tried to move toward the “artist thing” and it caused a sort of interference/darkness. Back to the joy of creating in cloth and toward more light. Thank you for sharing your journey and please continue sharing your paper musings.

    • jude

      I think the internet has had some negative effect on the joy of just making, there is a tremendous pressure on creative folks to be more than they are. or need to be.
      Many loose pages to come.

      • June Etta Chenard

        Yes! to your ” … negative effect on the joy of just making, there is a tremendous pressure on creative folks to be more than they are. or need to be. … ”
        And also to Sharon and Jen’s posts.
        This has been my direction for the past nine months or so (nine months — what is growing and perhaps about to be born?

        • jude

          I think it is simply confusing really. Because for some it is a deep need but everything these days has been linked to marketing and it distorts the idea of audience. It is hard, some folks indeed need to make a living but social media has changed the way we look at that. I suppose we could go on and on about that but media has crept into our lives is a very weird way, it is hard to think for yourself. I will save this rant for another day…

  6. something about this post…..reading it while i watch this dim light of a Rain morning rise over the crest of this Hill….i suddenly wanted to hang that blanket of log cabin spirals on the pvc pipe that’s suspended across the room but then, realize i can’t because i’ve got that little propane heater going there and it’s the only place for it eee There’s a lot of joy in those spirals and i suddenly thought of Michelle and she said
    figure something out, grace
    ok

  7. Nancy D

    Your thoughts, expressed in your words and art, followed me down to the Woods and Lake this morning. I saw a thin branch lying on the ground. I stood it up….and there was your Seeing Tree!!

  8. Sharon McDonnell

    And the world asks, “What is it? What will you DO with it?” , and I try to explain it is about pouring myself out toward curiosity and attentiveness. Noticing is a high art form. It is not production. Something like that….

  9. Jen

    “the drive is fueled by joy”
    Yes, a thousand times yes.
    It’s not about the $, the fame, the game, the recognition…it’s about im breathing therefore I’m making ( or thinking!) It’s all about that.
    Nothing excites me more than creating.
    Stay warm and snug…I’ve got to go out and pick citrus, rescue plants …the deep freeze is coming.
    wheee. 😜🙄
    ((“Eye seeds” 💓💓💓)

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